The Wood Pile

Please don't ask me to tell you "I understand" what God desires from me .... I don't..?? These past few weeks have just been crazy with emotions - I'm sure there are all kinds of answers.... BUT yesterday morning, FRIDAY morning, my day off - Rodney and Lake left the house 6:30am. I am lying in bed trying to go back to sleep with no luck - I feel like poop, I'm tried, I don't want to deal with the world today... I wanted to BE STILL, BY MYSELF.... But as I see it, GOD did not intent for that to happen!! I had this burden to go to the wood pile - again please don't ask me why, I don't care a thing about that wood pile - Rodney handles that and to be honest I knew that our neighbors had given him some wood and he went to picked it up BUT I DID NOT pay any attention to the DUMP site of the wood. SO, in my PJs and garden shoes I head to the wood pile.  Well there it was, piled up in front of the heater - I thought to myself....well maybe I mentioned to GOD "looks good to me" AGAIN.... God did not see it that way!! So I set into making two stacks on the sides of the heater, small wood and big wood.  It was chilly and remind you I'm in my bed clothes man handling this wood. I stopped and looked around,  the overwhelming  heart break of missing Mitch was more than I could hold back; as the tears fell I remember feeling - "WHY AM I OUT HERE DOING THIS"?? my heart just wanted to hurt today and instead of comforting me Lord, you ask for physical labor?  Tears falling, Sobbing I look up and see a calf in the yard - "Wow, what a show I have put on for you little calf" - I thought.  I walked to the fence quietly and open the gate - the calf walked in without any fear or hesitation. I mended the fence as best I could and walked back up to the wood pile, quietly I finished stacking the wood.  I talked to Rodney a short time after and told him he would have to fix the fence because the calves were getting out - when I told him that the calf walked right in without hesitation he replied " They are smart, they know where they belong"  mmmmm.. are you getting it yet?  Cause I just did - Its when I want to be by myself and my heart hurts so bad it feels like it will explode and there is NO comfort to be found -  HE opens his arms and I walk in without fear "thats where I belong"

P.S. as I was checking out the "Stack Job" I got a "God Wink" - I am just saying....God has a sense of humor and I have sore muscles - Lesson Learned... 1. His arms are always open - just walk right in without fear, the comfort is there  2. helping others find their way "where they belong" quickly eased my heart ~  God's love for dummies 1 on 1  ~ 

1 John 2:5: But if anyone obeys his word, God's love is truly made complete in him. This is how we know we are in him.

Lovin you Today ~ Until tomorrow
Melissa