Heart of the matter ~

I don't think I have ever been your 'typical girl" - No pink, Love dirt, Big trucks, Softball, Fishing, Football, ALWAYS -Baby dolls were for sitting on the bed!! I have to add, I thought it was STUPID when girls signed their name with a HEART behind it, "how stinking girly". My life in general, "not typical".   
 I found a picture of Mitch I have seen a thousand times, it was a picture taken after one of his surgeries around 7yrs of age- right above his head in bright light "a heart". Got me thinking.... scary I know!! I will say "with years past - I love pink, I still love the dirt, big trucks, ball, fishing and more than anything "Hearts". Six years ago our life came to a new chapter (Rodney) - something happen that I slowed down to see the love around us... HEARTS EVERYWHERE!! The first showed up the day after I met Rodney - one in a perfect heart rock (now on our pantry) second a BIG rock in the first ever picture of us. Since then, uncountable and getting them from all over and everyone - who came to know our "heart" story. I recently reunited with such a precious soul that I had went to school with years ago. Odd that it happen like it did but credit to facebook. After I had spent some time with Greg, I was introduced to a whole new family - OH my, what they would bring to my life..... I was invited to Christmas Celebration 2009 at the McEachern's (a well kept secret that all should have the pleasure in sharing) and there I sat in the living room of the most wonderful loving atmosphere ever, admiring all the people gathered - my eyes wandered to the biggest heart I have ever seen, not sure where it was i.e.; at the neighbors or in another room - I was looking through the patio door into another room. I could not stand myself, I found Mrs. McEachern (Momma Mac) and asked her about the heart -- OH MY DEAR.. my heart fell in love with this sweet sole - I was lost in her & HER ART WORK!!! I shared our story of hearts and explained how the boys were finding them, Rodney and myself. I told her they were just everywhere and I just could not figure it out. Momma Mac in her sweet comforting voice touched my arm and said the words that later would stand me on my feet with strength ( " God's love is everywhere - a lot of times we just dont slow down enough to see it and accept it") I am sure I miss a few hearts BUT not many. I have such a collection and plan to put them together in a book for a sweet reminder of Gods love for us. After Mitch passed and I was faced with the most Unimaginable task of planning his "going home " gathering (thank you my sweet cousin Tammy) for the choice of words – they do make a difference. There I stood for the first time to realize I have no control and never had any - Walking through a cemetery to “mark” where you will lay your loved on to rest (is not something ANYONE ever is prepared for – many things go on in your head – call it a Melissa thing… but I was so mad at whoever kept this cemetery and focused on this tree that looked of NOTHING BUT death itself standing there – I COULD NOT LET IT GO – My mom – father-in-law and husband, I’m sure thought I had lost my mind – they reeled me in long enough to make my decision ….. I still don’t remember because ALL I could think about was this AWFUL TREE!! Right in the time I needed God to send me his love and I GET A DEAD TREE??? Really… and to catch my eye yet no one else seem to mind that tree - As we got in the car that was parked right beside the “spot” I looked up at the tree that now that was at a different angle – from where Mitch’s earthly body would be laid to rest – STOP THE CAR!!!! Again, they thought I had LOST my mind…. THERE IT WAS A PERFECT.... at a different angle it was a HEART (God Wink) at that moment I knew – GOD was in control and had always been in control - sending his sweet love to us just as I had ask – as I have always ask and received. SO many people have sent hearts to me from everywhere, I am grateful and keep them all (compiling a book with sweet stories) Most of all I am thankful, that so many have "slowed down to see" Our heavenly father's plan are not always what they seems .... HE is my strength!! Until tomorrow.. Loving you today ~ MeLiSsA

Looking from Mitch's Mounument (After)

Coming in the GATE (Before) - Although looking now.... It looks like
a M (smiling)